Albertus Angga

Hi, it has been long time since my last post. Forgive me for not being able to post regularly (lol). Since I don't know what to write in my blog.
But today i just want to write something that I want to remember forever.
For really long time, i used to hate myself. Yup, i hate myself. Even my current self.
Maybe the biggest lie that I've told to myself is that, i will do better tommorow, i will have much more time to fix what i've been doing tomorrow. This is really naive. Because I've never been able to do better the day after.
For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate.(For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate.)
I did something that i really hate, and at the end of it i always blamed myself for it.
That's why, i will not continue doing things like this. I will never be able to change if i keep delaying things.I used to really beat myself for my failure in the past, and I thought by beating myself i can do better. But that's not it, the more i beat myself, the more i feel really worse. 
I think i've been too hard to myself.